dancing~passion

2011-03-09T20:37:00.002+08:00

406 CHAMPIONS!
milo ftw!
JUMPSHOTTTTTT
MACHO!

ROAD RUN 2011

haha this year's road run was better than expected. at least it didn't rain, unlike last year! it's like the first successful event since tan jong lek came-.- seriously. tsk. haha the run seemed shorter than before. got 9th(; improved by one position. our class had 9 medals! and got an overall champion trophy! who said that we only know how to mug uh! tsk. anyway many sec 4s ran this year since it was our last year running already. the inter class was a waste ); we didn't get into the semi finals but at least we played fair (; well, some classes were rough. really rough. hate the way they play! but whatever. haha. the sandwiches we made for the road run was still fresh! hope they enjoyed eating them!(; took jumpshots and many many photos. i can say its one of the best road runs i've ever had! it brought us closer! 406

2011-02-18T21:08:00.002+08:00

I'm tired, really tired.

I shouldn't have appealed. it was a wrong decision. i thought that perhaps i can make it but it appears that i'm too stupid for the class. yeah, i'm stupid, born stupid. what you want me to do? i'm already trying my best. i don't want to give up. i don't. after today i realised that i'm really stupid and there's just so much for me to do. i don't want anyone to despise me and i won't let you despise me. i'll put in my best effort.

i won't let anyone hurt my ego just like that. even if i'm alone, i'm gonna stand strong and fight this battle to my very best.

i shall work hard and not let those stupid words affect me. i won't allow that to happen.

2011-02-14T18:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!(;

hmm firstly i would like to thank everyone for the gifts! i'll try to name all, sorry if i forgot to put your name );

thank you TTY, JEMAINE, JOANNA, CHAN HONG, JING WEN, VANESSA, YOKE KAY, QIAN YU, YU QI, NATALIE, QIAO LIN, FELICIA, WAN LING, BEATRICE, ZOE, MICHELLE, KIT YARN, JING LIN, AMANDA, VALERIE, YUTING, YU WEN, ZHI XIANG, YI KANG, HUI LI, CLARICE, REGINA AND MORE! CANT SEEM TO RECALL );

hmm, i hope you guys like my cookies! it took me quite a long time to bake! haha love you guys, SPREAD THE LOVE(;

I WAS SO HAPPY GIVING OUT GIFTS that i forgot about the math test. had one minute before the test to study-.- GREAT! dang. and chinese test was omg-.- FAIL. seriously, forget it man! haha VDAY is much more interesting than these tests!(; its definitely and interesting day today! witnessed selfish love and genuine love. hmm, sounds weird right? but its true and idk how to explain...

oh yes! during chem, vanessa totally made me embarrassed. she's in love with my gift haha.

ms wang: i know today vday, dont need to show off your gifts(hinting about van)

van: NOT MINE! (points to me)

so stupid lorh. rawrs. haha. rawr. i have nth to say and im rawr-ing haha! okay i shall go now!

SPREAD THE LOVE(:

I GIVE UP!

2011-02-07T18:01:00.005+08:00

yoke kay so prettaye!
do re mi! :p

HEY!

hmm, school is as usual boring with wjp classes-.- i can never forget the day she scolded me just because my chinese isn't that good. anyway i've already gotten an A for her, what more does she want-.- omg. wont let her ruin my mood!

today's ICT class was kind of stupid. had to do some chart thing. i can't believe we have to attend lessons just for a stupid certificate which i doubt we will require in the future-.- well stayed back for a little while then went home. i'm really tired:x

2011-02-06T20:55:00.007+08:00

STEAD!!!

hmm, i know something is troubling you recently!); but you are a strong girl! if there is anything troubling you, tell me ah! i'll be your listening ear(;
ting!HAPPY CNY!!!

haha yesterday was bai nian at three houses! hmm, not bad lah! they all dressed very nicely!(;

lost quite a bit yesterday ); i was winning at first! argh, whatever lah! anyway

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY G ZONG!

went to the library to study for chem test today! saw jer and joanne there! omg, so qiao. oh yeah, saw yundi with a guy too! hmm, nth much! the details are in my mind and im oh so lazy to type and i dont want to type:p okay so yeah. im done!:p

2011-01-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

THINGS GOING HAYWIRE
dang!
oh my tian, what a bad start to 2011. seriously, i have never ever faced such a problem before, i have no idea as to how i can solve it. apparently, its just left hanging there and not solved. GOSH, im gonna die if things are still like that. hate to leave things lying like that. i keep writing and writing. hoping that one day, ill find enlightenment! haha, im still on the way there with no light found. but its okay, i guess TIME is all i need. well, life's really being a pain in the ass. im havng troubles like every single day. argh, whatever. forget about this, for now. just hope that things wont be this way cause im NOT happy.
so... about this year, its a really hectic year. with tests coming up and im totally not prepared. i havent started studying for anything. i practically jsut come back from sch and rot. DANG! im such a lazy bum! rawrs, SYF is breaking me apart. dance practices are getting lesser and we dont have much time. my leg is currently hurting like shit. and and MY DEAREST TING! im so sorry... she hurt her foot cause of me. RAWR. im sorry ); and "someone" please stop doing things that hurt yourself. dont force yourself to dance or what. i know it hurts, i can tell. just rest.
oh my tian, everything seems to be a disaster. you know, it hurts to see that things ended up this way. its my fault for not phrasing things properly. but what i said wasnt what i meant. im just not perfect or experienced. i really dunno how to express my views. well, some of those words really did hit me hard. hit me real hard. i mean, 4 hours. who can ever beat that? argh, have to settle this myself. i hope the silence will end.

2010-12-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

EVERYTHING IS IRRITATING ME RIGHT NOW. ugh.
the comp doesnt want to function properly,
i cant sign into my ebuddy account,
im feeling pretty upset about the end of today,
my mom still doesnt want to bring me to see a doctor,
im super hungry.
which means, IM EASILY IRRITATED.

there was dance the past 2 days. well, i felt that we wasted yesterday and today was a total failure i guess? combined was today. for the mini concert, i thought that it was not bad. especially when cultural danced. i could tell that they improved. we shouted and somehow, i felt that we were one. the feeling was there but, theres room for improvement. no one can be the best within minutes, we cant expect them to be the cream of the crop overnight. it takes time.

sec 2s led today, i think not bad eventhough things were a mess. i mean, problems will sure arise wont they? to me, things werent as bad as what he said. i agree with some of the points. most people didnt know what the plan was and couldnt act according to the plan cause no one told us. its always this problem dont you see? i mean, the last combined prac, only 2 of them knew what was going on. this time, its just the ex co. im not trying to criticise or what. not saying that the way you guys do things is wrong. but try to think in our position. you cant just order us around like servents. tell us what's going on. once everyone knows, things will go according to planned. for example, during the mini concert, the ex cos said that nan hua should sit at a certain area. thats what you all expect us to know. but how are we supposed to know when you dont tell us?! doesnt make sense... i dont mind that you all plan by yourselves. i dont. but you dont even tell us whats going on? im a little upset about this point.

anyway whatever was said at the end of today, i think it was kind of redundant. some points we true. but most were not. we tried to help. speaking in the point of view as a normal sec 3, you guys want us to help you as we are the leading batch but how are we going to help when we are like the rest, not knowing what is going on? thats why we are standing at the side, clueless of what to do or rather what to take initiative on. we dont even know what is going to happen next, how do we take the initiative. yes, we can help but do you guys even regard us as your batchmates to start with? remember, we said no matter who is the ex co, we will plan things TOGETHER. this never happened after the elections. im sorry but this is how i feel. i tried to tell you guys many times but i have given up. i dont think you'll ever get it.

k im really angry cause of a lot of things, i dont mean to rant or what but i'll die if i dont say.

next, i know its a small matter. i am angry since last night is because i was taking things seriously yet you made a joke out of whatever i said. i want to know if you even regarded what i said seriously? im trying to get my point across so that this wouldnt happen again. but did you bother understanding? you're tired, easily irritated, whatever. but so am i? i had a full day of dance and i slept for about 4 hours only. didnt have lunch or breakfast. then you come and tell me this kind of thing. obviously i'll get angrier right? ugh.

k im really pissed.

2010-12-26T21:58:00.004+08:00

Hmm...

hey, im trying to get the blogging mood back but not really suceeding... heh:p anyway, im blogging for myself to see now rather than to let others see, haha doesn't matter as long as im able to vent my frustrations by typing here.

Gym was kind of tiring today but didn't perspire much? that sentence kind of sounds weird eh? haha, whatever. i realised i only fulfiled like one out of three of my wishes on gym stuff. :c so sad. sigh, i shall work harder next year(;

Wasn't in the mood for ballet today... sorry:x i think we're like fast compared to others caused we finished everything already!(; i think we learned grade 7 faster than any other grades. i feel sad for yu lao shi... i think that we're like his only hope but sometimes, we dont have the mood forballet then our moves are like yucks... :c sigh... hope to improve!

oh, this year's christmas mood just wasn't there. its weird when the tree isn't there. this year's presents were predictable? cousins gave a shirt, mom gave a flask(its really handy when sch reopens!), sis brought me for a shopping spree(; haha and theres another one which she will be sponsor me!(: going to shop at fareast i think! hehe. happy(;

I'm soooo gonna work more than sis did so that i can pamper myself(; since young, i dont really get to go shopping and stuff. mom buys things for sis most of the time... haha but things changed this year, cause i got mom to get me something everytime we go out(; but of course, im not some spoilt brat! whatever i get would be because i need it and the price is affordable. im not those type of people who wants branded goods. nah... i just get whatever i like, price comes first!(; haha.

i'll try to get some photos up each time, got to get used to using my laptop again. i'be lived without it for months already! haha(;

toodles~

2010-12-24T23:06:00.003+08:00

YAY!

my laptop is working right now, i hope i'll post more often! haha. its the eve of christmas and the mood just isnt there now... it kind of feels so weird eh? Oh! I had fun at my cousins house where we played games. sounds kind of lame yah? it just brought the smiles out of me!(:
hmm, im getting a new phone tmr? i dont think daddy lets me take both... so i prefer using iphone then. should i choose blackberry curve or nokia E5 or E72? rawr. i sound like a rich kid right? haha sorry im NOT. just that my plan needs to be renewed so we'll get to have a phone for free or at a discounted price...

oh yes, i went shopping with my sis today at scape to see the flea market. its like kind of nth to buy except for accessories... most clothes are second hand so yeah, didnt like them. but i got a skirt its brand new(; we met a super nice lady there who sold semi-precious stones. she's super lovely. my sis is so nice to bring me shopping as my christmas present! she paid for everything i got. but yeah, didnt get much cause it isnt my money anyway! walked for super long-.- and got lost! haha. orchard is super close to bukit timah? took less than 15mins to reach my cousin's house!

okay let's see what has happened recently...

my cousin, larisa, might be going to cambridge to study law(; so smart eh? haha. sigh, jealous of her!!! she's sooooo smart!!!(;

well, apart from all the happy stuff, i've got lots of homework to do. lots left undone. especially chem when im not good at it plus im not a fan of chem...

SYF next year, stressed. okay -end-

2010-10-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

ARGH, i still wanna dance OUR dance

HEYHEYPEOPLEEEEEEE

k actl no one comes here but me! nvm.

anyway exams are over and i am STRESS FREE

i emphasise IM STRESS FREEEEEEEEEEE

haha k anyway went to trix's house to watch movie and played wii!

super funnaye!

uploaded the popcorn making video up onto youtube

we really screamed!

hahaha sigh, though we arent in the same class, nothing changed!

they're still super funny and super epic!

hmmm i think im gonna fail phy and bio and probably geog.

the papers are hard this time!

super hard!

i wanna improve badly);

but i really gave it my all this time apart from the last few days of exams:x

heh.

not exactly in the holiday mood yet

cause there's chinese o levels next

not exactly hard but its still o levels!

hmmm i'll try to post more often!

k bye! tata!

2010-09-19T18:28:00.004+08:00

moon face!

ong loves me and attempts to kiss me eh?

PUT HIM TO SLEEP?

hmmm... i dont really have much time to use the comp since i have iphone!

and theres like studies i have to cope with

so i dont really blog that much but anyway no one comes here so doesnt matter!

its for me to see(;

mid autumn celebration on friday

the stalls were kinda boring...

cause i was hungry and there wasnt much food!

it was like drinks drinks drinks and more drinks-.-

rawr.

the sec 1s and sec2s did a good job!

we all had a standing ovation for you guys!(;

k back to my title...

grandpa is really ill in the hospital

and being the grandaughter he doted the most, i couldnt do anything.

not even to visit him cause he's in hongkong

thinking about my schedule at the end of the year, i cant go either.

does that mean im bad? );

well...

bestfriend said that maybe it was better for him to sleep

but i dont want to.

maybe its true that he's really suffering but we all pray and hope that he can overcome this.

i dont want grandpa to go

no one has ever left me like that.

on the other hand, ending his suffering might be a better choice?

it hit me real hard yesterday.

i didnt know what to say.

somehow these 4 words made sense

somehow it seemed like the best decision

i really really wanted to cry.

i think of him every single night.

but i promise not to cry and be brave.

all i want for grnadpa is for him to be healthy and well again.

please grandpa, hang on.

2010-09-05T20:21:00.002+08:00

hey yo!

love this pic!

love this more!!! oh theres a guy's version too!(:

HEY YO PEOPLE!

k im back!(;

guess i shall do something to my tag board...

it is like seriously spammed!
hmmm 31 august...

the day we presented OUR dance to the teachers and the school!

yeah i admit i was pissed/angry/irritated throughout the whole week

but well, it turned out great!

in fac, it was a BLAST!

oh! i cant upload the YOG photos!!!)';

gym today, yoke kay and ting went too!

stupid shifu made me wait for 40+ mins-.-

stuuuuuuuuupid.

k gym today is mad!

sun jiao lian made me do yuan di hou fan like 10 times

like wts!

giddy like mad!

oh yes, i bought a ticket to watch some ballet concert

and it falls on EOY period-.-

but i cannot dont go!!!

its very expensive...

rawr.

k my results are like shit

but oh well...

i shall just work harder then...

2010-08-25T19:42:00.002+08:00

yay! though amanda looks soooo funnaye!
WORST DANCE
k im finally back
im lucky not to have failed anything yet.
phew!
so yes lets see...
im so super duper stressed by teachers day!
the proposal and everything makes me go mad
rawr basically i have A LOT to post
but its like too much to be posted so yeah
not looking forward to teachers' day at all
oh yes! thanks g-zong for talking to me(:
you're a really really nice brother!
sometimes just sometiems i wish that i made the right choice
after listening to g-zong's wise words
i realised that i dont really need them with me right?
so what if they're pretty
as long as i do my part i should be contented.
so yeah, i shall just do my part and scram
k i should leave before my head explodes.
oh and thank you for making me feel this way, you did a great job.
as for you? i dont see why you're even here cause you arent any help.

2010-08-09T19:22:00.002+08:00

hahaha ong style! me likey!

me and tong!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!(:

YOG'S COMINGGGGGGGG

sigh... time passes really fast eh?

exactly 2 years ago we were on the floating platform

performing for NDP

that period of time was the time when i felt more and more for dance

we practiced really hard

the sore throats and perspirations were nothing

i missed batch 94 and 95

if we were to dance NDP 08', it would only be left with batch 95

see... time passes faster than you think.

please really treasure the last 2 times we would be performing on the floating platform

though i must really say... the feeling isnt the same

last time NDP made me really nervous, every single performance

but now? YOG? i dont feel that tense

i hope we could get the same feeling back

and thats when everyone puts in their all

i admit its not every practice that i dance with my all

but when we're performing we MUST give our all

i know we can do it(:

so yeah go people!

i flew a kite today! O.O

the weather's super hotttttttt

so irritating

btw i did qian fan and hou fan on a stupid table

sun jiao lian force me leh!

tell you i would rather do some backflip and die ON THE FLOOR

rather than to do qian fan and hou fan on the table

im serious

its super scary!!! k bye.

2010-08-03T20:16:00.002+08:00

this was taken on mama's bdae on 27 July!(:
it looks nice eh?
SHITASS ATTITUDE=.=
i really really have no time to study for commons...
im gonna fail badly AGAIN
but "I PROMISED TO MAKE MY MAMA PROUD"
anyway there was this sec 1 guy who said the above during the interview
omg he is soooooooo filial!(:
k so... no math remedial yesterday
mr chan didnt tell me
wanted to watch interclass netball
but was pulled for sec 1 interview
anyway had fun interviewing them
we were once the ones who were interviewed
but now we're the ones interviewing them!
well... i can say not everyone has the absoute leadership qualities
so... most didnt get in i guess?
k we didnt win the interclass but WHO CARES?!
haha anyway bet they had fun!
today was ______(no adj to describe today-.-)
just like any other normal day...
oh SECOND translation lesson-.-
stupid right!? the teacher is always occupied someway somehow
and next tuesday is a holiday and so is the next next next tuesday
so... we will only take 3/10 translation lessons! YAY!
hahaha
tmr's YOG practice again
and i am oh-so-absolutely busy
omgzxcv
i realised i have no time for homework...
i owe A LOT
k im gonna goo do them now!

2010-07-31T18:31:00.002+08:00

ON THE VERGE OF GOING MAD.

this week was sort of full of tests...

FPSP made me go mad i swear.

i was literally screaming my lungs out

2 hrs is definitely not enough.

bio test postponed to next week so yay!

then chinese test=fail

cause i really have no time to study

so anyone not taking part on YOG dance out there

dont say you dont have to time to study cause i'll punch you in the face-.-

so... we got our costumes and itss -.-

super omgzxcv undescribable

actl the dress is okay but the head gear...

like CABBAGE.

ayah whatever lah as long as we ugly TOGETHER

anyway it looks so much better than i thought it looked!

yesterday was weird...(actl idk what adjective to put in-.-)

firstly, its our FIRST performance with audience

secondly, its the FIRST time we use the liu xing

thirdly, its our FIRST time dancing in the costume

so yeah-.-

walked to nicole highway mrt after the performance

its like super FAR

k actl not that far but i was tired.

then took the mrt

it was cool cause it was CHARTED for US!

yay!

k so reached sch soon!

for the first time,

there was soooo many people in sch at 11+pm

thats all...

OH YES! im talking to nicolette choo nowwwww

and i miss her A LOTTTTTTT

come back soonnnnnnn(:

2010-07-26T17:22:00.002+08:00

haha funnaye!

me and TONGGGGGG(:

AS BUSY AS A BEE!

sch is as usual... BUSY and BORING.

ugh.

anyway i realised i dont have time to study

and when i do have time, i find myself here-.-

gosh.

when can i study!!!

yesterday's gym was like OMGZXCV

undescribable...

my yao hurts like mad and my arms are aching

but well, i learn something new every week

oh! i punched sun jiao lian TWICE IN A ROW

haha sorry:x

ballet was kind of slackish plus i was tired

so no mood-.-

YOG rehersals are taking all my time away!!!

hmmm but to spend it with dancers, it seems much more enjoyable(:

and for now, I LOVE JINGKAI'S DSLR!!!

haha

cause thats where i get my photos from(:

yay!

shall upload a few everytime i blog so that it wouldnt be so boring

im confused, literally confused.

2010-07-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

JUST LET ME THINK
sch's fine...
i suddenly feel pro at math!
hahaha joke!
and chem test was shit!
cause i didnt study really:x
i feel so guilty lorh.
did TDD today!
and i think we're doing well at least we got 1/4 of it done(:
i mean like our part
aish so prettaye!
tmr's CR2 and i am sooooo not looking forward to it
dont ask why.
hope tmr goes well.
i just dont have the answer, im sorry

2010-07-21T21:51:00.002+08:00

So it's my fault when my parents fight?! Hello?! All I wanted to eat was a stupid ice cream. Dad, YOU blamed me for asking. But why don't you ask yourself?! Why don't you just give me one?! Like what the hell. I mean it's just an ice cream. Mom gets angry cause he doesn't want to give me one. Does it even make sense-.- I mean it's not as if I was desperate for one and will die immediately if I don't eat one what?! All I did was to ask and everything is so complicated right now. Dad scolds me for asking and mom's crying in the room. How good can life get. Shit ass. Hate my life right now.

2010-07-18T10:09:00.003+08:00

Hey people! Haven't posted for a long time
Anyway no one comes here anyway!
Have been busy with YOG
Well it's really hectic!
Have no time to study no time to even do homework
RAWR!
Yesterday was really -.-
Reached the F1 pit at 3?
Then we waited till 9PM before our turn
To dance ONCE
Totally shit leh and we get our shoes wet just to get on stage-.-
Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Oh! Heard many love storied yesterday eh!
And the sec 2s(Joanna! Chanhong! Xuejing!)
Are super super not shy pls!
I tell you I absorbed everything yesterday like a sponge!
*wink wink*
Going to SP soon hope uncle lim's going!!!

2010-07-11T17:06:00.002+08:00

RESULTS OUT!!!
K well at first I was super happy with myself
but come to think of it, it isn't that good...
Got my distinction(:
Finally at least I improved!
Improved by 8 points so yay!
Jingwen got distinction too!
Yay us! We always get almost the same marks since 7 years old(;
Yanting and mandi nvm lah! Try harder!(:
K anyway was super late for ballet though we cabbed there
Went to Singapore poly!
Sun jiao lian is super effective pls!
Though I kicked him super hard:x
He taught me hou fan! And aerial
So I mastered Hou fan today! Yay!(:
And I'm gonna get scolded by mom-.-
It's like now, they don't approve me of dancing
So yeaps

2010-07-07T20:03:00.001+08:00

Oh hey people.
Blogging with my phone haha
Anyway today's lessons were kind of slacky
No chem no math plus open space
Equals to 5 free periods.
English boring as shit
Chinese worst that shit-.-
Elect geog is like okay lah
At least ms nornie's a little funny
K then it was dance
But ji he later than usual
So we dance-ed AYG
It's just different without the rest of them
But still it helped us relieved the memories of the past
K then went studio
So the day was super slacky
I just don't know why but I don't have te urge to want to come to dance
I'm sorry but the feeling is no longer the same
And please stop questioning me
It's just too personal?idk
Not as if I want to be like that
Yah nvm anyway...
So hey peeps.

2010-07-04T22:48:00.003+08:00

RAWR.
ballet was like kind of slackish
and i havent gotten my results oh my...
heard that not many got distinctions
watched some balelt competition video
and they were all super amazing!
guess what?
yulaoshi's student teaches in beijing wu dao xue yuan!
omg!
and he told us his life story
super touching...
sighhhhhh
went to PA then(:
though it was just about 1 1/2 hrs,
it was totally fruitful!!!
tried aerial again...
smth's wrong even though i can do it.
and now my ankle hurts like shitzxcv)';
did jive! and i think its super cool
i wanna learn more!(:
k so came home ate dinner and im oh so tired.

2010-07-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE.
today's dance was well kinda FAST!
like literally.
did wushu with the guys and it was amzingly cool
haha
we all liked it i guess?
oh and o-levek oral's coming and i am so dead-.-
my chinese was neever good and never will it be good...
haha but oh well, im gonna give it my all!(:
k and so my week ended with a bath dinner
haha i really really love batch95'
they're oh-so-funny and never fail to make me smile!
i thought that i could confide in you
apparently, batch95' is always the best.
they always make me feel better.
sometimes, i am too straight forward or smth. but to tell you the truth, im always like that. like it or not, its your problem. i dont need you to be friends with me if you just find me irritating/rude/idk what you can think of. i mean, its not your fault that your tired and sick and irritable but you're not the only one on this earth is having this feeling. i just smile so that people wont know. i just smile so that they wont ask. i just smile so that i wont care. YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH PROBLEMS. its not as if i dont, its not as if i am not tired, its not as if im not stressed, its not as if i can do anything and everything i like. its just that i dont say. im sorry but sometimes i really doubt everything and anything. im sorry to say im a girl im not someone to be trifled with. im not some punching bag. im not a target for you to shoot at. im not some stupid shit for you to shoot. k im done.

2010-06-29T21:07:00.002+08:00

29th june
exactly one year ago
we were in the Singapore Indoor Stadium
we were dancing for the Asian Youth Games
well, i've never ever felt so much for dancing before.
we were all dancing our hearts out on that stage
on that very day.
i miss all the seniors, all 2009's sec 4s
i miss srw with nicholas though he wasnt able to dance with me )';
and of course kaiwei who never failed to lift me up
practically, i miss everyone(:
they really made me love dance.
it was how they helped to bring up dance
though we may have underwent several scoldings and harsh trainings
we, developed strong feelings for one another.
it is indeed through these processes that we develop ourselves to be better people.
thinking of YOG, we, can do it too(:
k thats all.
i am already dying though its only the second day of school
yesterday, had dance at mandai camp till very late
today, had to rush out the video running around school
ZOMG
i am dead already.

2010-06-26T16:56:00.003+08:00

MUSCLES ACHING.
hmm past 3 days was like almost the same.
well through these days, it brought back memories of AYG
during AYG practices, we did exactly the same thing
but it was more tiring
and i guess, YOG is kinda slack.
BUT, the whole dance improved a lot in these days.
its like they knew that YOG was coming and we had to buck up.
hmmm though the practices are tiring,
it was blissful to undergo such training with batch95'
idk why. they just make me happy(:
the first two days was tiring with only 9 sec 3s
we did a good job i think.
yes, some broke down but we picked ourselves up again!
never ever blame yourself for something
and we are always here for you yah!
yesterday was the worst day for me.
met merilyn,haowei,yenshen,paul,regina, stupid banana,vivian
we took soem videos of teachers like super early
met at 7.50am
and i was NOT late.
then had dance
which was tiring
i fell twice before qian fan
i cant believe it.
plus i was feeling really really idk how to express
hmmmm
hope that everything will be fine on monday(:
jiayou peeps!(:

2010-06-21T20:17:00.001+08:00

RUSH RUSH RUSH
oh well at least 80% of the sec 3s are in msia-.-
how i wish i could go! argh.
oh and guess what i dreamt that iris and benedict could go
cause idk of what reason and i woke up feeling jealous!
can you believe it!? k nvm im crapping
anyway i've got phy, math and chiense left
to do by... TONIGHT-.-
tmr doing some preperation stuff
then weds,thurs and fri is dance
omg...
NO TIME.
plus i still need to make a trip to the library to return books
but i dont have time up till now
i hope daddy's gonna send me there by car.
pls pls plss pray!
k anyway hope to finish smth soon!
bye peeps its math time
gosh im bored-.-

2010-06-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

I DONT WANT TO BE A SUBSTITUTE NO MORE.
hey daddy, happy fathers' day!(:
today's ballet was well kinda slack i must say
but we're fast!
i dont get it why most people need 2 years to learn
barre's kind okay but long
actl everything is just long.
oh yes, did i mention
that it started with 4 of us
then people joined and left and joined and left
then now its left with the four of us AGAIN
k love them three!(:
hmmm there's practically nth to do at home
and people are leaving for msia.
how i wish i was with them!
ARGH. bye msia peeps! miss ya! )';
oh yes! saw fb, yanting, joanna they all went PA
and they did tuoju etc etc!
ZOMG! i am so jealous!
yeah well, i did it before but i wanna do again!
haha yeah im greedy!
oh well, im contented for now. but jealous!!!:x
k bye.

2010-06-16T23:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY YANYUTING DEARRRRR!(:
see the horse! hope you like it
hahaha
well all that i have said is in the sms!
so yeah!
love ya! stay prettyyyyyy(:
MUACKS!
so yeah, went to cut my hair and i got bangs!!!
AGAIN.
i conclude that bangs makes one shy!!!

2010-06-15T21:43:00.004+08:00

ENOYABLE DAY(:
k so im older by a year now...
haha well, today was fun
shant elaborate cause its MY LFIE!
muahahaha
anyway thank you people for wishing me happy birthday on facebook!
had a total of 147 wishes!!! yes, that made me very very happy(:
and for messages, there are about 26 haha.
in all, thank you very much people!
you guys made my day.
love all the people out there! muacks!
i dont mean to end this post very sadly causeits my day but, mom, all i want from you is trust. the problem why i dont tell you stuff is because i dont trust you cause you dont trust me. and for the last time I HAVE NO BOYFRIEND. happy? stop questioning me on my birthday. in total, you nagged at me like 3 times today? mom, you said it is a special day for me and you dont want to make me upset or what but you just did. yes, i told you in the face that i am upset and you know why. you called me stupid today AGAIN and suspected me. you dont trust me. mom, im sorry to say that you kind of ruined my day. im sorry. oh yes mom, you gotta know that i HATE oreo cheese cake. the last thing i needed from you was an oreo cheese cake for my birthday.

2010-06-14T16:50:00.002+08:00

306th POST.
wow.
i woke up at like 5+am to go to the hospital
actl i dont get why is it such a big matter
its just a minor sugery-.-
went there and waited for my mei to come out of the surgery room
k so it took super long
i practically rotted there.
finally she was discharged at 12 plus?
came home ate my lunch went to lib
met korea people
actl dotn think we did much
and i was tired so didnt help much sorry:x
stupid jiehui STALKERRRRRRR
went to look for books but coudnt find nice ones
so went home.
kind of freading tmr :x
i am so gonna be rotting at home-.-

2010-06-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

FALLING OR LETTING GO?
well today was hectic.
met yanting/yuting/terence at jurong
the ride to lavander seemed super short casue we were talking(:
reached soon, met kevin and brandon
went over to PA started to do crap-.-
haha but the studio is humongous and gorgeous(:
i wish i had a studio like that at home sigh...
anyway many came and we started to plan
went through the previous one
we started to give in ideas then poof!
we had our first movement(:
well tried some shuang ren wu stuff
i guess we can make this dance perfect!
left with quah soon
before going into the train, i bought soya milk!
i was super thirsty, drank it in few gulps and my tummy was feeling gross
ballet was kinda boring
but fun since i knew the steps haha
went home then
btw here's the bad part about today.
my mei was so eager to see me dance
that she fell flat on the ground
she hurt her chin and its super disgusting.
went to the hospital cause the cut was super big
visited her after dinner
btw, the hospital was better than i expected!
seriously...
left soon and here i am.

2010-06-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

NEVER EVER TRUST WHAT THEY SAY.
met batch95' today!(:
well planned and stuff
think we're kinda cool!
ate lunch then they bought cake!
celebrated kityarn's birthday!!!
then continued with our planning
thanks yoke kay for your house!
oh yes, yoke kay's mom was like
"YOKE KAY VERY COOL HORH"
hahahahaha
people, gotta look at this.
search for "charlie and drew so you think you can dance"
see the contemp! super GORGEOUS!
its really really nice(:
ahhhhhhhhhh
yoke kay showed us anyway!
the girls were like "ahhhh..."
k fine me-.-
yeah well today was fine i guess!
cant wait for the next session(:

2010-06-11T00:58:00.002+08:00

oh guess what happened a couple of days ago. i asked my sis math question then i asked her did she cut bangs? then she give me attitude. she was angry with me for asking if she cut bangs?! like what the hell. she said i gave the idk what angry tone. so she said "MAKE SURE YOU FOREVER DONT TALK TO ME" SHE SAID IT. then now she apologise then she wants me to talk to her? does it even make sense?! hello!? slapping people and saying sorry? thats not the worst part. the worst is she cried in front of my mom and told her how i IGNORED her. oh wow and here is the thrilling part.
mom came in talk to me about how i am ignoring her i tell her cause she said "MAKE SURE YOU FOREVER DONT TALK TO ME" and then i got scolded-.- went out talked to her and she didnt want to talk!? WTH!? so she dont talk and its my fault-.- funny. obviously mom was angry i know k partly my fault. but i got the "main scolding". then she talked about her life on and on and on. she was like do you see me and your aunt giving black face? then i said casue you're grown up!? we have to learn from our mistakes right? i mean it doesnt make sense. she said we quarreling gives her a chance to teach us about stuff and obviously scold us. but if you dont make mistakes then how is she going to scold us and teach us. does it make sense? its like a cycle. k i feel so much better that im typing all this out. but im still gonna ignore cause its CLEARLY not my fault this time. kthxbye.

2010-06-09T18:25:00.013+08:00

EDITED//
so after the idk how long flight, we landed in korea at Incheon International Airport. we had this super long ride to go too mt sorak where our campsite was. the ride was super long that i fell asleep! k then we had our first lunch in korea which was the above. from that meal, i concluded that koreans like food that have strong flavours? (idk the right word.)

i didnt expect that place to be this nice, they even had DOMITORIES for us!? zomg... plus the weather is so cold such that we have natural aircon! oh yes, we needed a heater too whcihw as so cool as the ground will become warm as long as your butt is there! so after a long day of activites, that is indeed ideal!

greg, grace and wanqing!

we had like some extra time after doing idk what so we started to take pictures! like lots of them.

one meal is like that!? and we have like 3 of this everyday! but different food of course! the food is delicious i tell you and the people there are very very friendly(: so during our stay there, we learnt new games, had high obstacles like flying fox! oh and we saw mrs lim's way of tucking in on regina! super funnaye! the most interesting thing was rafting!!! shaun started some water fight but got scolded by ms yeo-.- anyway its for our own good. btw! the water was freezing cold and 3m deep luckily no one fell in except kelvin koh who was stupid enough to drop in even before he got onto the raft-.- we had archery too which i suck at... oh yes! not forgeting the night trekking where we weren't able to see any stars but saw some lazer demonstration which was AMAZING.

me and haowei whil we were at some place...

TRAFFIC LIGHT!

our resort!

the view from the balcony

rice-before

rice-after SHAKING

after we left the campsite our dinner was almost like that everyday with diff food.

day 4, we went to mt sorak to stay at the wonderful resort! it felt as though we had our own house, it was cool(: but only had one night there. that night was tortorous-.- lights out at 10.30 btu we watched america's next top model until 11 then prepared to sleep but because of iris's mad laughter and everyone going crazy and wanqing's taupok and everything we slept super late! hahaha but very enjoyable(:

elijah with ms yeo's bag which im suppose to carry-.-temperature on the mt sorak

shaun climed to the peak which is like 750m above sea level! ZOMG

see the nanhua people climbed there! so freaking HIGH.

elijah and his best friendUS!

after much persuasion ONE photo with 306 chairman!DEAN! i think he's like bending his legs or smthDISGUSTING GROSS MAGGOTS IN A POT-.-see how happy they are?! ewwwww

they bought A CUP OF MAGGOTS. EW.

k before we left the resort, we climed mt sorak which was superly duperly cool!!! as in literally CLIMB. it was already terrifying to be standing on top of the mountain. btu they wanted to climb up so they went and i joined later heh... SHUAN CLIMED ALL THE WAY TO THE PEAK! he is mad! so had trouble climbing down but thanks to benedict i got down! heh thanks!(:

some mushroom steamboat thing, its deliciousthe bathroom was HUMONGOUS.

OUR ROOM!

haha merilyn doing her catwalk.the beds! NICE RIGHT?!kelvin goh! haha GOATTTTTT(:

benhur hotel is GORGEOUS! the toilet is super huge for idk what reason but super cool!(: oh and we could call to the other rooms to talk for hours withouut paying so it was fun(: stupid elijah and paul asked us to watch some channel 2 so we clicked and it was some porn thing which we were screaming to change the channel!?then we wanted to look at the channels so we clicked 1, SKIPPED 2 then clicked 3 which made us scream again cause it was the same thing EWWWWWWWWWW. gross. overall the hotel was great(: and the teachers gave us ample time to bathe etc etc do reflections at night so it wasnt that hectic and we got to use the comp, watch tv etc etc.

sch visit at naodong middle sch! the lab!

ME AND IRIS! with mr liu! hahaha

went to Nae-dong Middle School for a visit. the exterior of the school wasnt hat nice but the interior was wow. CLEAN. but small cause they dotn have such a huge population. we sang for them "Singapore Town" which was kinda kiddy but what made it cool was greg beatboxing! and the feeling was great case everyone was singing!(:

this was how tired we can get on the bus!the ginseng chicken. GROSS.

OUR BUS!xiuzheng doing CPR on a dummy

ELIJAH LOOKS LIKE HE'S IDK DOING WAHT TO THE DUMMY-.-this was how high the ladder goes like 19 storeys?!

elijah going up.

some bridge when we go to some garden...

elijah enjoying life.haha taekwondo!!!k i was bored while waiting.-.-SPLIT! muahahaha the trainer praise me!!! heh:x

greg looks like some pro eh? but he's not! its the person who took this!

so we went for taekwondo lessons by some taekwondo pro! it was super hot. idk whats with the weather that day! but cool leh! the teachers did taekwondo too which was hilarious! and SHAUN IS AWESOME!!! he can like do everything-.- and yes he owns a python at HOME.

on the busssssssbimbimbak? idk how to spell! haha very nice!(:

look like we're going for NDP eh?

some artificial river! very romantic to bring your date there for picnic! haha

some carriage we saw! with a real HORSE!!!*YUTING LOOK!*

the dustbin which is extremely hard to find but humongous!

attempt to take with the garden heh

some water treatment thign which was absolutely boring and only 1/2hr-.-

our last meal)':haowei cooking for us!(:

both MY watch!(: heh:xthe world cup stadium

with benedict lui!

so yeah we went to the world cup stadium where the guys started spamming photos! hahaha the palce was cool. it was a stadium turned into museum-like-thing? anyway it was cool(: oh yes we had shopping like 5hrs one day!? ZOMG! and i love love love love artbox in korea! the stuff were super cheap(: the places we shopped at were kinda like singapore bugis street but much much much bigger. yeah so in all i miss everyone and the place(: got to interact with the teachers like they were our friends... totally did not regret(:

2010-05-26T21:47:00.001+08:00

MIA.
for idk how long...
i think there is no point for me to blog already
so yeah...
going korea and will be back on... the 4th of june.
i have to study.
yes STUDY.
i deproved like so much...
so yeah! june holidays= study! and catch up.
yeaps so bye.
if i feel like it then i'll be back.
anyway im just talking to myself-.-

2010-05-22T20:27:00.002+08:00

YES, TIME TO LET YOU GO
yesterday after dance was great(:
muahahahahahahaha
a wave!
went lib with bestfriend(:
and as usual im early
actually he was late, AGAIN
but i'm used to it
didnt really read...
thanks for your jacket(:
went for lunch then to tuition!
jerrold chua came again GOSH!
it was horror.
he stalks all my friends!!!
did binomial expansion...
and my mind is going bonkers!
came home and went IMM to pei mama to buy groceries!
aren't i a good child?(:
bought some stuff for korea
going to buy more tmr!
whoooooooooooo

2010-05-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

THE END OF THE ROAD.
today was BORING.
assembly was -.-
someone vomitted. gross.
got geog results and i PASSED
whoooooo
so this proves that i can do geog but i just cant do map
after sch batch meeting blah blah blah
went home
tired and feeling so down down down.
while walking home i kinda think and think about the memories we had.
and i just felt like going to the past
where we had carefree lives.
sigh i miss sec 1...
its either im thinking too much or you changed but you dont know.

2010-05-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

DRIFTING APART.
hey people(though no one comes)
well my results are really below expectations.
i promised not to cry so yeah i wont.
yes, i will work hard
so stop saying that i wont.
anyway dance was very tiring.
after idk how many weeks or not dancing
today was indeed madness.
btw! I BROKE LIONEL'S DOODLE JUMP RECORD!
zomg!
that lionel tops in all my games! unfair!
k anyway walked home yeah and i totally stink.
i wanna wear my old leaotard.
but whatever.
came home mom asked about my results
so i told her, i expected a scolding from her.
but she didnt
i think its better when she scolds me
so that i wont feel that bad.
mom, i promise i will put in more more more effort
but i swear, i tried my very best.
im sorry mom.
yeah so... today was well fine i suppose? i thought i could be all smiley with you. yes i tried, but it didnt work in the end? so i guess this is the end? the end of our freidnship. i hope things will change really.i will do my best to pull you back. i wont want to lose a friend like this. it doesnt matter to you but it matters to me. so... im hot-tempered today yes, i tend to rant at people im awfully sorry but what i say will still be the same. let me cry and i'll be fine. plus i dont need people to tell me to work harder casue obviously i will. k bye.

2010-05-18T15:43:00.003+08:00

AND SO I HATE YOU.
well school's depressing everyday since EOY ended.
results out they suck big time.
oh well i cant turn back time right?
ahhhh i feel so dumb.
i gotta buck up
had a sudden CEP test
i saw many methods of copying which is hilarious!
anyway i am going to read more books and prove mdm sia wrong!
yes im going to read lots of them.
my focus now is not dance anymore
its ballet then studies then yah.
end of story.
sometimes i wish i had never met you. sometimes i wish i had never appealed to nanhua. sometimes i wish i didnt had the passion for dance. yes i mean it. things have changed. A LOT of things have changed. you and them. i never thought i would ever feel this way but i think i was wrong. its now you and them living on the other side and us here. i really wonder why did i even bother? really, your actions make me disgust you. its the same feeling as before or rather worst. we're never going to go back to the past, where it was just you and me with our common interest. i wish we were sec 1. thinking back about how we met is a bliss but now? idk. i dread tmr.

2010-05-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

HOW CAN YOU DANCE EFFORTLESSLY?
yesterday's pointe lesson was a disaster
the warm up was intense
and i realised i was getting old, inflexible.
we went there to learn pointe not to watch them dance!?
i dont get why we have to go there ans watch them do spanish while we stand there
i dont get it
why cant we be like any other ballet class in singapore
why cant we do normal stuff
why are we always the ones that are left out?
the seniors are better? NO.
and the guys there?
they have little strength and no flexiblity?
i just want to get out of there
and start anew somewhere
forget it.
anyway today was kidna boring.
watched the last song.
though miley cyrus is acting in it
but the show was great(:
im serious. GO WATCH IT.

2010-05-13T19:49:00.002+08:00

YOU'RE FADING. NO LONGER SPECIAL.
went out the whole day today!!!
watched horror movies with batch95'
at ziwei's humongously humongous house!
yes we watched HORROR movies in a BIGGG house.
the orphan was SCARY
with sudden screams here and there.
but it was fun to be screaming together(:
ate macs
watched the idk what its called
that was creepy
the way the show was filmed was UGH
i'll upload some photos as soon as i learn how to upload them
heh.
left soon
took 66 with michelle and lionel!(:
talked talked or rather gossiped!
hahaha
k im home tired. and scared.
soon you'll hate me and soon we wont even be friends.
i would rather we have never met.

2010-05-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

SCREWED.
yay mid years is over!
boo gonna get results soon-.-
i think i did badly ahhhhh
k anyway it was a hectic week
totally no life can!
its like exam,study,sleep,exam,study,sleep
everyday like that leh!!!
anyway ballet exam on 7 May 2010
the examiner is damn strict
my usual way of gaining impression marks was ruined-.-
she totally didnt smile at me can!?!?!?
argh.
my piroutte... couldnt even turn!
sigh whatever ah.
so much for distinction. now i hope i pass.
today was out to watch mao's last dancer
and i tell you i am INSPIRED!
yes i wanna work hard!
i have the sudden urge to enroll into singapore ballet academy...
but i dont ahve the ability!)';
watched my first ever band concert(:
kinda nice and entertaining
finally reached home at like what 10.30?
what a long long day!

2010-05-06T15:23:00.002+08:00

6 May 2010 DOOMSDAY
emath paper was fine...
i wasnt exactly freaking out like usual
geog im dead.
totally dead.
tmr is hectic for me
i have to study chem
and chem is the subject i am bad at like totally bad
not the worst subject but yes its like ugh.
and i ahve to rush for ballet exam tmr
im so stressed out.
in less than 24 hours, i will be inside the room
i've prepared for a year for tmr!!!
i want my distinction)';
plus theres a lot of remedials going on tmr argh
i dont want to miss the math one
and i want my ss paper
and i think i can attend the bio remedial
then i'll have to run for my life back home
gosh.
im busy.
i dont want to say this but i cant leave you hanging

2010-05-03T19:39:00.002+08:00

MY HEART COULD"VE MELT!
went to yingpei house!
study again!
talking to lionel about geog makes me remember!
so i memorised everything excluding examples
in 2 hours!(:
whoooooo
played wii
then lunch bought macs and came back
continue studying a while...
didnt achieve much though...
played wii again! then home
the train ride was BORING!
casue it was like me and the guys-.-
THEN THEY ONLY TALK ABOUT BBALL!
so irritating!
went to NTUC to find magazine
but there isnt the new one )';
came home soon
i am soooo gonna try to finish all the mid year papers today!
yes im touched.

2010-05-02T19:43:00.003+08:00

wheeeee

blur but still perfect(:

smth is wrong with my eye ah whatever

holding hands~

and more people came

then everyone!

DETATCHED.
library and ballet today
not a good day
ballet was just watching ourselves dance
and i guess it wont help if we changed now cause its jsut weird...
felt horrible and exam stress...
ballet and sch oh my mama...
well im not blaming anyone but well i kinda feel detatched. )';
i dont want to feel this way
i left so that i wouldnt just sit there and just put on a smile?
idk im sorry.
its different, i wish we were sec 1s.
maybe this is the change, the transition period?
i'll get used to it someday.
i dont really anticipate next next week.

2010-05-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

PLEASE MAKE MY FLU GO AWAY!
wasnt willing to wake up to go out today
anyway i wasnt that late okay! only 5 mins late!
met lionel and brandon at cck
went to yingpei house
lionel was like "TURN RIGHT" then he went left!
lionel cant tell whats left and whats right!
did Amath paper! finished it whoooo!
yuren came sooon
and so did yanting
then yoke kay
so it was like a mini study group!
hahaha
ate pepper lunch at lot 1
and went there for 2 hours!
got back and didnt feel like studying
did the remaining math questions
learned a teeny weeny bit of chemistry...
anyway today was a funny funny day!
they played a bit of mahjong while brandon played wii!
it was super funny!
came home soon at around 7?
my nose is running like a tap and i sound manly GREAT!-.-

2010-04-30T21:32:00.003+08:00

FUZZY WUZZY IN MY MIND
couldn't sleep last night.
went to school and prepared for oral com!
our group was the second one!
stupid.
i totally forgot all the stuff i memorised
so it was like kinda thinking off my feet
i think its not bad ah!
geog was plainly copying answers
math was oh so boring
went out with batch95!
had fun in pizza hut
but i swear im never going there again!
had to eat chilli etc etc etc
very very funnaye!
lets see if my dearest yuting will post it on fb!
went back to school!
the journey was damn damn damn funny!!!
rushed to change then studio for yingpei to put make up!
love putting blusher!
council next
had to wear heels and it hurts!
A LOT
had to usher the guests
helped a few GOH!
heh
walked walked
stand stand
and now i have tons of blisters!
went home soon...
btw bestfriend, your conducting was great(:
im confused. yes,no? no,yes? idk)';

2010-04-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

ELECTIONS
hey hey the new exco is out!
congrats people!(:
i know i cried
but just let me be then i'll be fine
ms kee talked to me
thank you for trusting me(:
pearlynn talked
and yes again thank you for telling me so much, making me believe that my chance will come but not now(:
and to all the people out there who sowed concern(:
hey bestfriend, i know you didnt say much or dont know what to say but yes, you made me smile(:
went home soon
not in the mood to post cause tmr's the enlgish oral thing!
p.s. some people do need to learn whats privacy.

2010-04-27T19:40:00.002+08:00

NAPFA!
school's kinda getting boring nowadays
plus the fact that i failed my chinese class test
i cant do chinese.
how i wish chinese was an optional subject.
ARGH whatever.
and mdm yong scolded our class for not changing out of PE
cause we had ss remidial during recess!?
like wth.
always our fault.
NAPFA today was well okay...
came home soon...
this week is hectic even without dance
like wow.
tmr's speech day rehersal.
wearing that super duper hot blazer zomg...

2010-04-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

M&Ms!
paper 1 today!!!
zomg...
chinese was surprisingly okay
english made my hands so tired!
i think my compo is like off point..
ah whatever
everyone in class is getting sick!
get well soon people!
and DEAREST HO JINGWEN MONKEY!!!
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!(:
stayed back
practically did nothing
cause i thought i was getting sick!
haha
k then now im home
and gonna study for ss rawr.
countdown-11 more days )';

2010-04-24T20:30:00.006+08:00

STUDY STUDY STRESS STRESS
woke up at 9---> library with BESTFRIEND!
get well soon ah bestfriend!!!
drink more water though you already do.
went to fourth floor...
zomg i hate it can...
i want my chair, i want my peacefulness!
saw sooooo many people there
saw tong, stupid huisi etc etc
saw pngyuren, hazel and junhao? if im not wrong
saw jianbin too but he didnt see me
study study...
then lunch(:
saw bear!!! i miss her so much!
went for tuition
and as usual it was funanye!
went to library again
finished my math today... only math
sigh... nothing accomplished
came home soon
i was like staring into space
and it dawned upon me that tmr is mock exam!
ZOMG!!!
which means ballet exam is in like what 2 weeks
and that mid years is in 2 weeks!
oh my mama
tmr's mock exam
im nervous
i dont want to get scolded again)';
sigh.
)';

2010-04-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

NOT.IN.THE.MOOD-.-
woke up late today zomg...
suppose to wake up at 5 to study
but dragged to 5.30 then i slept back. RAWR.
woke up at 6 then rushed to school
chinese chinese chinese sigh.
im gonna fail i tell you
F for chinese here you come.
couldnt kinda finish the paper...
i anyhow answered the remaining question.
rushed for dance. was late for dance.
dance was kinda boring for me...
cause the mat's not there!!! rawr.
i want the hall back.
attempted aerial on the floor and obviously i failed terribly
went to watch speech day dance it was very nice(:
left and talked in the canteen
weixin and her "joke" was shocking!
walked to clementi mrt...
yah wait wait wait
then went home.
BLAH thats my day

2010-04-22T18:22:00.003+08:00

WE DONT NEED YOUR USELESS COMMENTS.
school's the same.
didnt need to run for PE yay!
assembly was kinda cool i guess
at least it was entertaining...
was thinking about dance elections.
i dont want to compete with my dearest yuting
i was afraid that something bad might happen
im afraid that we would lose this freindship?
but well after speaking to her i was assured(:
it will never happen.
cause whatever the outcome we will still be sisters(:
love ya my dear
after school did my homework
finished and now im home to study chinese-.-
it was going to rain but we still walked to clementi
the rain was fine at first me and yingpei were sharing an umbrella
then it rained heavier
then the umbrella started turning upside down.
was soaked through.
yuwen's fbts was funanye!
came home walked in the stupid rain cause i missed the stupid bus-.-
rawr.
election results are out oh my mama...

2010-04-21T20:06:00.002+08:00

CRIPPLE-.-
today's chinese was just so...
BORING!
but yokekay's kind-of-sleeping-face/mode was funny!!!
stupid alan made me shriek in class!!!
thank ms lim for the mini snickers!!!
she always gives us chocolates(:
dance was like whooo but booo
whoo cause i managed quite a number of aerials!!!
WHOOOOOOO
and boo cause i think i pull my muscle while doing aerial-.-
and YOG dance made it worse cause we needa bend down squat or whatever lah...
then i was kinda pissed:x
the worst part is i know my muscle hurts and yet i still do aerial
stupid or what uh!?
and my arm... idk why pain)';
its cause im getting older everyday. RAWR.
went home soon...
the journey home was soooo long...
and my arm and my leg...
pain.

2010-04-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

LIFE'S FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS.
probably its different for me
its kinda like all downs and maybe one up?
ahhh whatever.
school's the same
apart from the fact that i had to rush to sch in the morning
i woke up late due to all the late night studying.
everything was going well
cause i had the determination to learn everything
and make sure that i knew everything that was taught in class
but the geog test ruined my day)';
oh well its over i cant do geog thats the end.
i studied like so super duper hard like 2 days?
FOR A CLASS TEST
and now 6 marks gone! sigh sigh sigh!
i realised that i really really cannot survive not eating!
sounds like a pig but yah
recess was meeting ms yeo for korea trip stuff...
the good news is that i'll probably be able to attend dance(:
whooooooooo
so skipped recess
and then lunch was geog test skipped lunch too
after school had to meet ms yep again
and to collect blazer!
i was surprised that i wasnt dead by then.
and G-ZONG IS SO FUNNAYE!(:
people! tag ah!!!

2010-04-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

EVEN THE LIBRARY CAN BE A FUN PLACE(:
had a bad night!)';
cough for like an hour?idk why...
woke up super duper early at 8.30am!
anyone who drinks my drink should be honoured(:
cause even i dont make milo for myself!
rushed to the library soon...
the library is officially my third home!
almost had no table!
did my notes... bestfriend came!(:
continued till about 1 plus?
went up to the 4th floor and its super duper cold!!!
seriously the coldest i've ever felt!
left for ballet...
it took me like what 20mins to reach?
ballet was kinda slack cause we finished everything
wanted to train flexibility but ended up watching nanshan stuff!
and they are super pro i tell you!
like our dearest kohyingpei!
sigh.
rushed back to library to continue my studying...
finished all my notes and managed to memorise half of a chapter
heh...
and theres like SO MUCH MORE to go...
btw i learnt about music today!
hmmm lemme see what did i remember?
sizhu-"silk and bamboo"
ahh and much more words i think?
heh(:
went home with bestfriend at around 6.30
had dinner immediately after i reached home
and here i am prepared to fail geog tmr-.-
p.s. bestfriend you'd better not get sick!!! get well soon(:

2010-04-17T22:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGPEI!!! LOVE YA LOADS!
may you be smarter everyday! eventhough you already are... but yeah! you are indeed a very very very very nice sister to talk to! and you always make me laugh with your funnay antics(: love ya!!!
see i know you love green~

I LOVE COTTON ON!
morning i watched my tv~
went for tuition...
we were doing revision AGAIN.
RAWR.
tuition was kind of the same with laughters(:
went library again and i guess im getting better at concentrating
apart from the fact that bestfriend made me talk non-stop!
his fault not mine!
left at 6 to meet mom
went to jurong point
cotton on is the love(:
went to get meimei's shoes...
oh yes smth funnaye happen!
i thought i lost my sister and mom
so i called them.
then they looked at me i looked at them!
their faces were like"who the hell is she calling!?"
went home soon and here i am...
geog is calling me...
RAWR.
honeylemon... bestfreind get ready to be poisoned to death!

2010-04-16T20:41:00.002+08:00

FRIENDS?
daddy's not in singapore)';
went to school myself and reached in 20 mins!
sch was fine
bio test was kinda easy
but i still think that the test is 30 mins!
dance was well idk not bad but not great either.
tried aerial on the ground:D
suceeded twice! whooo
im going towards sucess!
actl not eactly on the ground... the acromat!
danced YOG a few times?
and the roof is leaking -.-
the place where im suppose to dance on is always wet
when i fall its the roof's fault!rawr.
went home with triple science books.
dont ask me why me why i brought it home.
its cause i feel more secured with my books at home?
the journey home took ages.
my dearest yanyuting(: dont be upset! i'll always be here for you. i'll appear whenever you need me(: ily!
dont you realise its always easy to comfort others and tell them its fine but when you're the one in the same situation it isnt that easy. right?
p.s. i want to go for the modern on pointe lesson... but no one's going with me... NGjingwen please go please please:X

2010-04-15T18:33:00.002+08:00

ITS ABOUT WHAT YOU DO NOT WHAT YOU SAY
sch was the exact same boring routine.
geography was fun(:
cause we asked for a change of date for the test!
and she agreed whooo
thanks laoniang!
for the first time i totally dreaded pe.
BUT pe was basketball so yeah
hannah is the joke of the day!(:
anyway my muscles were aching due to dance yesterday
12 qian fan... im gonna make it to 16!!!
btw, tried aerial on acromat
not good...
sometimes i feel that im treated as trash? i take the time to help you guys and in turn what do i get when im not around? i get shit stuff. i ask no one tells. it just makes me feel as though im living myself on this humongous world.rawr.i wish someone cared.
hey people please tag!!! i know you're looking!

2010-04-13T19:41:00.002+08:00

ARE WE EVEN MEANT TO BE FRIENDS?
school's always fine
but you know i think its getting more and more stressful
with the coming 2 tests, i think im worried.
im afraid that i cant even pass. A PASS
whatever.
stayed back during phy remedial...
listened a bit then did the remaining of my homework
went down i really concentrated this time
i managed to complete most of my notes(:
but theres a lot to memorise)';
talked to bestfriend(:
almost had to run in the rain to the bus stop
but thanks to yikang's umbrella i dont have to walk in the rain
yoke kay dont want share with me tsk tsk!
see im not wet or at least the left side of my blouse isnt wet
the journey back is kinda funny haha
and here i am feeling super duper horrible.
FYI EX-CO RESULTS ARE OUT TMR
oh my goodness
doubt i'll get any position anyway
yeah...
i dont want to lose my bestfriend)';
anyway im here to complain rant whatever you call it.
im upset with you. do you know whats originality? your imitation just makes me idk what to say. i just dont like it. theres a lot of things i wanted to type. i wrote it down but i guess it wouldnt make a difference right? forget it.bye.

2010-04-11T10:57:00.004+08:00

[edited/]
THATS WHAT BESTFRIENDS ARE FOR(:
yesterday was well the same...
tuition then library!!!
the library is super duper COLD.
anyway tuition was quite productive i guess?
at least i managed to not complain after like 7-8 questions!(:
went library met my bestfriend!
studied a bit
but was kinda distracted by the people walking there...
they're kinda funny:x
stayed till 6.30 then went home!!!
that was when disaster struck...
ate dinner, used comp
managed to do my notes thanks to bestfriend(:
later's ballet and im dreading it.
i hope that i wont fall sick again after ballet
*prays hard*
hey mom, sometimes i really do wish that you would leave me alone, instead of nagging at me all the time even at the slightest thing. im so sick and tired of your scolding. just because i took my breakfast later you scold me and said that im lazy, dont want to help out at home etc etc etc. you just spoiled my mood.

guess what?
i fell sick when im in the studio...
instead of perspiring, and feeling really flustered,
i was breaking out in cold sweat
but i had to persevere)';
maybe dancing is the only thing that can make me perservere(:
no matter how hard it can be, i will go through this!
bio bio bio
its flodding my head...
sigh bye peeps.

2010-04-09T21:43:00.002+08:00

MANY THINGS TOGETHER= SHIT.
but whatever.
its just a blob of fat.
anyway sch was fine everything was fine
until... RAWR.
anyway dancers please please please dont think too much
sleep rest well. tmr will be a better day
we wont let a setback make us die and fall and crash.
in fact this setback will make us stronger, we'll be stronger people
BATH95' well so many things happen,
we cried for one another not for others but US.
yeah so everything's gonna be fine right?
believe in ourselves.
we're here for one another.
so lets just "BREATHE IT IN AND PUT IT ASIDE"
love ya bath95(:
we just have to improve and show that we are capable of being the best!
prove her wrong! and to gain laoshi's trust!
jiayou everyone!
p.s xanthe? the sec 1 girl with the stitches get well soon!

2010-04-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

NOT.IN.THE.MOOD.
school is the same everyday i dont have to repeat
apart from the fact that im getting dumber and dumber each day
i have no idea why i cant get chem
its just chem, its just calculations so why cant i do it?!
im angry with myself. for being dumb. for being myself.
its just a wonder how i can be happy in school
but when i come home its just different, its different.
sigh. i tell people to be happy
but i myself aint that happy at all.
GAWD.
anyway, today's after school batch meeting was idk
i have totally no idea of what happened.
did homework.
thank you tanziwei for teaching me chem(:
though i still dont understand but oh well
talked a bit to the juniors.
i pray that tmr will go fine.
like please dancers do everything to your best ability!(:
sigh. i shall go emo in a corner draw circles and look at chem)';
rawr. bestfriend.)';

2010-04-07T21:16:00.003+08:00

[edited/]
FEELINGS THAT ARE TOO CONFUSING TO BE DESCRIBED.
hey peeps if there are even any
was excited this morning for investiture
which turned out to be a total disaster.
failed phy can you believe it?
not i cant.
math test on alpha beta is shit
im sure dead now.
left for investiture
talked to ting a lot today
it was fun(: love ya my dear
was hoping to see lots of people!!!
saw reine!!! and jingwen!!!
haha reine ah... really ah mature liao ah!
the PINGYEE is a joke! haha
he made my day though made me laugh(:
saw jingwen during the school tour
after that rushed back to clementi
took a cab with clementi town councillors!
ran for dance
was late obviously
it was then that everything changed.
dont even want to talk about it.
no one's at fault
or rather it does make some sense that we shouldn't be skipping CCA
or whatever but nah idk.
i hope things will improve
got batch95' bring dance to greater heights!
sigh.
please.make.me.happy)';
THANK YOU BESTFRIEND(: YOU'RE THE BEST!!!
hello _______ i didnt expect you to come up with such answers. it shocked me totally. if you're just going to act like this in front of us then i would rather not have known you. thats the reason why we couldnt go back to being the same. quarrels are just diamonds have been scratched. no matter what you do you, polish? or whatever, the diamond just gets thinner and thinner. one day it wont even be a diamond anymore. its will just be a piece of junk. you can never turn back the time to change what you've done. it will forever be a a scar. i dont know to treat you as a friend or to beware of you. you are just so _____ there isnt a word in the dictionary to fit your description. you left me speechless.

2010-04-06T18:07:00.002+08:00

LOVE YOU TTM VANESSA GOH QIAN HUI!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:
*i still love you TTM* wink wink!
IT JUST GOES TO SHOW THAT YOU S-U-C-K
lessons today were fine
i officially love mdm yong's lessons when she talk
like talk to us about bio instead of TEACHING
its seriously engaging!
mdm yong you ROCK!
talked about worms yucks but interesting!
the rest of the lessons are boring.
met ting after school
went to collect blazer for tm's investiture~
im so excited to see NGjingwen and reine TMR~
hahaha(:
played a bit of basketball after school it was BORING
i spell it again B-O-R-I-N-G ugh.
whatever lah.
tmr's test not in the mood.
gosh you know its kinda weird how you guys act when shes here and when shes not here.

2010-04-05T19:46:00.002+08:00

NOT GONNA BE SAVED
i was determined not to feel sleepy in class
triple science was interesting!
english was well doing compre so it wasnt that bad
when it came to math oh my mama...
its impossible to stay awake
but i did(:
her lessons are just so ...
it doesnt make me want to solve the problem
it doesnt even make me want to think can
anyway after school went to watch the inter-class
the first match was the best!
it had the most action etc etc
played a but of basketball
and guess what TANZIWEI THREW THE BALL AND IT HIT MY NOSE
stupid...
it made my nose feel so suan...
if my nose is going any flatter you're soooo dead
hahaha nah...
i thought the ball would never hit me
cause there'll be someone taller to get it
but oh well
i have to save myself)';
anyway he cant stand near me otherwise im gonna get hit again
the sexband thing is just so weird!
but well its kinda nice(:
went home soon
and the guys walk way too fast!
k homework time-.-

2010-04-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

STRESSING MYSELF?
got scammed by laoshi today
stupid...
he told us the pianist was coming AGAIN
but she didnt oh well...
barre work made me perspire like mad
and the weird thing was im the only one perspiring
hmmmm maybe cause im hardworking~
everything was fine UNTIL
laoshi started to pin point at our pointe
saying that we didnt point etc etc
but it was worse for jingwen dear)';
he scolded her when everyone was also like that
dont be sad my dear!(:
went home alone... so sad!
daddy couldnt come
i hate going home alone!
how many more practices to ballet exam? 4 more practices
im dead.

2010-04-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

ITS BEEN THREE YEARS AND YOU GUYS CHANGED!
tuition was kinda okay cause i understand a bit of modulus
and i learnt it on ace-learning like A BIT
but i could ans the questions!
it made me feel smart
whooo
came home rushed home went to imm to get my heels!(:
went grocery shopping with mom
and i guess she wouldn't want me to go again
cause i buy too much stuff! but it was fun(:
came home ate dinner
went out soon AGAIN
to eat dessert and came home
now im here(:
so lets see what happen...
AH YES!
jerrold chua chun hui came again
and his stupid irritating voice is just so ARGH
but yeah i tolerated that for 2 years
so kinda used to it BUT his voice is like breaking...
then its so... WEIRD
yeah talked about WANQI AND REINE MY DEARS!
sigh this links to my title!
you know left pri sch like 2 years ago
we do meet up often
but yeah i still miss them lots
oh and back to wanqi and reine
they are both babes! VALENTINES AH!
okay you guys dont get it
but oh well....
anyways i miss BESTIES!);
and my dearest "BEST FRIEND" please please listen to what i say. i mean not that you MUST but well 2 votes for not quitting yah?

2010-04-03T00:32:00.003+08:00

well i typed a whole chunk of mean things here but i backspaced them all. cause i cant bring myself to post them. its MEAN.
btw dinner today was well a waste of my time-.-
well i mean just now
spent hours there stoning
rawrs...
tuition later in the morning
i have no idea why im still here.

2010-04-02T12:47:00.003+08:00

HOMEWORK DAY)';
everyone went out bright and early in the morning to the zoo-.-
left me and jie at home rotting with homework
but i would rather rot at home than to go to the zoo AGAIN
yeah homework day
im gonna complete all my homework!!!(:
and TTY no chocs for you
i dont care!!!
its unfair.
tmr's tuition and i must do my work
to prove everyone wrong that i WILL do my homework!
going out tmr yay! im anticipating.
i wish to say something it might offend you guys and i might be contradicting myself but yeah i have to say it. people have blogs. people rant at their blogs i understand cause i do it too. its completely fine. but the way some might string their words together are just mean. i believe that people do not need to use vulgar to express their feelings. if its for fun its totally fine. but when you're angry you used them its just very offensive. yeah thats all i have to say you guys have your own perspectives and this is mine so if you agree then yay! if not then yeah its fine(:

i hate people who give me one word answers on msn. you have 2 faces.

2010-04-01T13:12:00.001+08:00

i feel like slapping you. but i wont downgrade myself just to be at your level to slap you. bye you kid!

2010-03-30T19:57:00.002+08:00

KINDA UPSET )';
school's was well okay...
yoke kay had her ballet exam!!!
hope you did great(:
rawr school was the same...
felt like sleeping during chinese like literally-.-
someone took my fbt shorts
argh but whatever it just means that my mom's gonna get me more(:
stayed back after school
it was sort of boring.
stupid yonglin and linbo dont want to pei me to get my book STUPID!
twin's the best(:
didnt feel like doing anything
but i really felt like dancing idk why
did homework like mostly(:
math and SRP done!
went home with yingpei soon~
took 188 andit was FULL
all the aunties or whatever sucks big time!
they just squeeze and squeeze
thinking that they can fit into the tiny space beside me
like WTH!?!??!?!
HELLO AUNTIES YOU ARENT THAT SMALL
ugh this kind of people sucks...
rawr. im just sad why why why? idk.

2010-03-28T17:23:00.003+08:00

BALLET EXAM SCREWED.
ballet today was AWFUL
came early, thought the pianist was coming.
but end up she didnt come AGAIN
stupid shit.
and guess what laoshi said
he said that she didnt want to come cause we sucked.
i dont think so can!?!??!
our batch always score the top among the rest of the batches
and he chose to blame us not them.
irritating.
dont like the ms wong anymore.
i would rather the old tiko pei uncle who is nice
and do not criticise us
UGH!
anyway didnt sweat much
and guess what jingwen managed to do she2(dancers should know)
and she like did it in ONE day
on the floor within like 2 TRIES!!!
gosh im jealous of her!
shes fast...
came home dad got a printer wheee

2010-03-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

IS IT ME OR THE WORLD.
tuition today was kinda okay...
at least i had the determination to do math
stupid mao mao make me think smth wrong with my face
my face ugly already bad enough i thought got smth wrong.
missed the 333 bus. made me wait
came home chatted with TTY, did math
i promise that i will do my tuition homework
went out for dinner
the food was great seriously.
thankyou daddy!(:
just came back after going to giant with mom
oh yes, is it me or the whole world is emo-ing, making me upset too. it is inevitable to be sad ya i agree but dont be upset all the time? it does no good to one's health right? and to all those out there dont be emo over trivial stuff can like super trivial stuff its just so irritating. there are like people out there who are more troubled than you are.
yes, did i mention my ballet exam falls on the week of mid-years? stupid. now i have to work doubly hard. like both ballet and studies. if im gonna score bad for both, i might as well just jump down the building-.- sigh. i hope i'll still be alive before these starts.

2010-03-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

YOU CAN CHOOSE TO BE UPSET OR NOT.
have to say this before i forget.
there was this kind of tiko peh uncle
never see people tie plaits before is it!? comment comment comment
irritating.
and guess what i found out today?
BALELT EXAM FALLS ON MI-YEAR WEEK
GREAT!? STUPID.
double the stress...
please please please someone must cheer me on!
chinese as the last two period sucks. SUCKS!
wjp kept us back for like super long-.-
oh yes health check up today!
my back improved wheeeeeee
im sooooooo happy(:
dance today was well no YOG)';
sniff sniff
did some sequence stuff
and i tell you warm up is the only thing that can make me sweat like MAD
aerial whee(:
tried backflip
sorry liangyuan im not good:x
rawr. shouldnt try so diu lian...
did some sequence thingy
it was well tiring for my legs...
went home soon
OH YES EVELYN CAME BACK!!!(:
felt so tired throughout the journey
and and GUYS WHO CAN DANCE ARE AWESOME!

2010-03-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

I DONT KNOW YOU ANYMORE
school was well fine... skip skip skip
SS is totally interesting!(:
i think ms lim will be a great teacher
interesting eh?
stayed back to do homework
played a bit of basketball...
linbo ice-stakated!
HAHAHAHAHHA
it was seriously funneh
came home soon...
tmr's dance again i hope we're doing YOG
please please please please please
friends are suppose to be there for you when you need them. but it doesnt seem to be right with us. i'll be there for you when you need me and i always asked for you opinion not leaving you out of anything that i wanted to do. have you ever asked for my opinion? have you ever? elections are coming. people are changing. i dont like it AT ALL and to know that you're the one changing? im upset. i told you upteen times already did you care? did you bother to even think? idk im just not in the mood to talk to you. i dont want history to repeat itself.

people do change but yanyuting my dearest i still love you(:
i dread tmr.

2010-03-24T20:41:00.002+08:00

hey people, or rather hey blogger-.-
im in no mood to have a title cause im UPSET/ANGRY
school was fine today
i kinda knew dance wasnt going to be like normal
we did some taiji? or whatever lah.
im not sure of what it is either
i know it makes me ache cause have to sit up straight etc etc etc
yeah. did YOG ONCE
did aerial again wheee
thats the only exciting part about today
well im kinda hoping that i can improve more)';
liangyuan came and i was hoping that
i could open my mouth to ask him to teach me backflip
but i couldnt idk why
after dance wasnt great
its just a mask that i put on. im quite afriad that i might die or something cause i didnt eat today and i couldnt finish my dinner. how odd? i am not really in the mood either. someone please save me and telk to me on msn)';

2010-03-23T21:09:00.002+08:00

one of the photos from batch outing!(: *note that im the tallest*
INFLUENCE?FLIRTERS? IDK
school was well kidna same
got our new IC!(:- its looks kinda okay for me
took photos of our ez-link card and IC
my ez-link card looks like a maid can!
so ugly...
now also very ugly but now better i think?
PE was torture...
suppose to run 10 rounds but oh well we were stopped and the new OM is FUNNEH!
hahahhahaha
chem SPA took a long time...
so slow...
i could've fallen asleep in the lab-.-
chinese was well, hard to keep my eyes open
for some reason...
bio was BORING it was all about the SPA
english wasnt great wait SINCE WHEN WAS ENGLISH INTERESTING THIIS YEAR!?
the teacher insults people like ABCDEFG!
ugh...
CEP was doing the test...
the new indian teacher that came was soooo weird?
i COULDNT understanda word that she said like LITERALLY
went home soon...
slept like a pig
thats why i dont like to go home early casue i will sleep!
tmr's dance wheee? not.

2010-03-21T16:42:00.002+08:00

hey im back from ballet and im sooo tired that i can just plop onto the sofa-.-
theres no title cause i cant think of one and i have no mood to.
ballet was well tiring
suppose to have the pianist today
but laoshi cancelled it at the last moment
so we went there 1/2 hr early for nth-.-
the pianist's coming next week
today was stressful
did with the music no video etc etc
chose our dance stuff yeah...
i think i seriously suck at ballet-.-
why did i even do ballet
i really gave my all today
but still i cant remember the movements and my movements arent exact
they arent correct
im kinda glad exam's later...
they keep asking me why am i so hardworking
why? cause i want distinction. i dont want to miss by one mark again
and i dont even want 70+
i want 85/90
but is it even possible now? i doubt so
its just so hard. if im going to get a merit again im gonna give up ballet i guess.
im gonna leave before i start exploding
bye.

2010-03-20T19:25:00.003+08:00

HOMEWORK RUSH.TIRED.BALLET.UGLY FACE
basically i woke up with an aching body
but dragged myself out to do homework
tuition was well kinda funneh i guess
stupid maomao however its spelt
keep laughing at my face!?
UGH! stupid-.-
im gonna be like yuwen and cover my face until it stops
rushed home
GRABED ballet stuff
ran out of the house to ballet
gosh... so rushy
was the earliest though
wore exam stuff
pianist was there so stressed
barrre work made me sweat like some mad person
its exactly the same as one day of dance
OHMYMAMA
subsequently centre,free movement and character wasn't that tiring
FORGOT LIKE ALL OF THE MOVES
damn...
gotts buck up kelly!
came home finished chem wheee
and im off to math and probably chinese tmr
and theres still the council proposal oh my...
wish me luck!(:

2010-03-19T20:30:00.003+08:00

IT JUST DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT
heyhey im back from dance
im almost dead after 2 consecutive dance practices
my stamina has dropped i guess?
combined is today
well its kinda different from what we experienced previously
but changes do happen dont they
our first time "leading" combined practice!(:
we did our best
at least i know most did
i can tell that the girls gave their ALL
apart from some...
the guys were great too(:
shuang ren wu again!
and pngyuren can lift me!!! whooooo
chua jie's aeroplane is like jetplane
damn fast!
haha well i think our batch guys are fast learners!
they are awesome!
dancing at the parade square is just so squeezy!!!
i prefer the hall
oh and guess what?
i fell while attempting handstand
like seriously the worst fall ever
i teared and laugh idk why
the day ended just like that
sigh...
DID AYG!!!!
and guess what! did shaung ren wu with nicholas~
whoooooooooo
how cool is that!
k i grew fat-.-
how i wish that we could just dance and dont have school!
hmmm but that will never happen
my arms are aching, my feet hurt from all the tip toe
sigh...
OH YES! batch dinner~
split KFC and sumo house
eating with lionel is just so...
IM SPEECHLESS!
but he's nice(:
came home soon
you have no right to judge one by his/her looks. its just so mean. we cannot choose our looks, it isn't a crime to look ugly uh? so just bug off. so what if they're pretty its them not me. you're just being mean.SCRAM/BUG OFF/SHOOO

2010-03-18T20:02:00.002+08:00

FATTY FAT FAT!
whole day of dance today!
it felt kinda great!(:
warm up then diao juniors
qianfan next~ wheeeee
did SHUANGRENWU!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee
did an example with tianjun!
did aeroplane
kinda weird doing again
anyway the guys were kinda reluctant to do oh well!
did with tianjun,nicholas then brandon!
YEAH im alive!
laoshi came he was anrgyyyyyy
so scary...
paired up with guys
pngyuren CAN'T make me fly!):<
damn it!
make me feel damn fat humph
oh well...
OH I REMEMBERED SMTH!
did handstand...yuting help me
then i thought we ALL were suppose to jihe
so i immediately came down and RAN
but it was only the guys...
so diu lian!*shyshy*
did YOG
very tiring had to tip toe like practically everytime!
my feet are aching
lunch-sleep-cont YOG
yeah...
so thats kinda what we did
went home and bought the potatoe thing!
NICE NICE!
dance tmr and i am TIREDDDDDDD

2010-03-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

DANG!
woke up late again...
decided to go lib with ah quah
watched her eat her duck rice? or is it noodles?
i forgot...
went to the lib and dan was it PACKED!
saw elijah at the basement talked a bit
and and and guess what!?
IM FINALLY TALLER THAN THE SHELVES!(:
and i can see elijah above the shelves!!!
saw regina too
walked like practically the whole library
decided to go MACS! at science centre
did our work
then kinda camwhore at the fountain!
hahaha
came home and slacked
tmr's dance oh my mama
im kinda dreading it cause i havent finish my homework!
DAMN IT!):

2010-03-16T14:38:00.003+08:00

CUT MY HAIR!
i love my hair
but the back is short):
i told the hairdresser to keep length but she cut off my long strands)':
BUT i still love her to the max
she rocks!
GO TO HAIRTITUDE IMM SECOND LEVEL!
sigh... i need grow my hair!
i want it long~
today's pretty boring
and theres nothing to do with the exception of homework-.-
omg im sooo free today and tmr that i can sleep the whole day
my webcam takes fabulous photos though it isnt of the best quality
but i like it!(:
PEOPLE PLEASE TAG!(:*I KNOW YOU'RE LOOKING SO TAG!*

2010-03-15T23:03:00.003+08:00

second post of the day.
hmm yu shu huai laoshi let us go beijing BUT dance in school doesnt allow me to go. HOW GREAT-.- ITS LIKE FREAKING BEIJING! and and he mentioned once that we will be visiting beijing wu dao xue yuan!!! omg... i cant believe that im giving it a miss DANG! )'; should i go? if i go i'll be missing dance and i'll be out of YOG. if i dont go? i'll be missing an opportunity of a lifetime. im in a delima! this lead to me thinking about my dancing kind of life... theres like TONS of barriers that i have to cross in order to be where i am. to you guys it may be simple but to me it aint.
-having to endure the unbearable pain when laoshi STEPPED on my legs when i was pri one to train my split.
-having to be yelled at everytime something was done wrong? everytime we were feeling cheeky?
-falling flat on my face when doing stunts on the day of SYF, ending up with a super humongous bruise(the size of my palm) which hurt like mad.
well these are kind of the painful stuff that i had gone through but there are memories of course which are too many to name. but right now, theres just too many stuff that i want to learn but, im being blocked by a wall that is too high for me to overcome. perhaps i will never overcome this wall. friends are there to make sure that the wall doesnt fall but one day it will. that day will come... soon.
i just want to thank those that helped to keep the faith in me(:
i shall stop here before i start bawling my eyes out...

2010-03-15T20:03:00.002+08:00

WHAT DO YOU KNOW?!?
woke up at 9am+
did readers' digest
i realised that i have TONS of homework to finish in two days-.-
met batch95 at 11.45
bought the tickets whcih is like a total of 16!
and its super duper long!
shall wait for the photos(:
personally i think the movie is okay
walked around then library then bball
nothing much well batch95 is loved!
i feel like going to sentosa idk why!
rawr...
yingpei!xuanlin! photos!(:

2010-03-14T17:39:00.003+08:00

SEE THE CROSSES CROSSES!

kinda looks like blue but its black and i love it!(:

BALLET BALLET BALLET

woke up at 8am when i slept at 1am?

idk whats with me

but oh well isnt that cool?!

met yanting and jingwen to go costumes connection(the costume shop)

jingwen was LATE! i expected that...

went a little too early

ate tori Q and walked down haji lane

when ALL the shops were closed-.-

went to costumes connection

WE WERE THE FIRST FEW CUSTOMERS!

the leotards were WOAH!

but pictures on the website were sooooo much nicer

the schiffon skirt wasnt that nice

OH YES GUESS WHO I SAW!

I SAW LAOSHI~ isnt that cool?

back to the topic...

got shoes,leotard and ribbons...

wheeeeeee im hyper! i love the leotard(:

went for lunch

and then ballet which we were kinda late for...

it rained halfway

RAN LIKE A MAD PERSON!

and the two were lagging and they kinda walked/run

so we were drenched!!!

i pray that i dont get fever:X

had the motivation to do very well today

heh...

came home soon...

OH YES!

my exam pushed back-.- to 7 may!!!

ugh... i want it nearer its like so damn far

missing sch anyway and perhaps some of dance

ah oh well...

next week's piano rehersal

wish me luck!

2010-03-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

YOU SUCK.
kelly was coughing throughout the night):
i feel so terrible its like cough hence the tears
please no fever please please please
tuiton was kinda the same?
forgot all about alpha/beta
but its like okay WITH REFERENCE
came home soon
did some holiday homewok
RUMOURS SUCK
well i kinda have this feeling on me now. its like they tell me stuff im not suppose to tell but the whole world knows the next day. you get it? idk...how i wish i was a mute. not being able to speak only to hear.i hate people who are like this. H A T E. idk im gonna be quiet.

2010-03-12T22:02:00.003+08:00

YOGYOGYOGYOG
school was well the same...
WITH THE EXCEPTION OF ME COUGHING THE WHOLE DAY):
sigh... feel so dry...
my throat hurts!
lots of homework which i dont feel like doing...
SIGH
my report book sucks
and and ms ong is evil!
she marks the math test so strictly! ugh...
chinese was kinda fun(for the first time)!
dance was doing YOG
hmmm im near yuting and thats good?
ting,me,tong,yuwen,yingpei are all in the first row!:D
hahaha
as in kinda like in the first row...
yeah anyway tried aerial-.-
wrong all wrong):
whatever...
came home quite late
and here i am sitting in front of the comp
and my homework praying that the pile would decrease soon...
you are away and how am i suppsoe to feel?

2010-03-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

DANCING FOREVER WOULD BE SPLENDID
but it would have to stop someday
tmr? this year? or now
today was well the same
gonna cough my lungs out someday-.-
my throat hurts!)':
stayed back with batch95' to discuss combine practice stuff
hmmm yet another wonderful proposal by batch95' will be coming!
stayed back...
hmmm attempted to do homework...
talked to yenshen,timothy and merilyn!
hahaha
timothy you better stop it ah otherwise i bite off your head!
came home soon
mixed feelings, its complicated just too confusing

2010-03-10T17:56:00.002+08:00

SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME! ):
i feel terrible )))):
well went to west coast park this morning...
had to go through a HUMONGOUS traffic jam to get there
and it was cancelled-.-
BUT BUT BUT!
the good part FOR ME is that im kinda sick and coughing like MAD
went out with ex-208'09 students!(:
went to science centre
those childish ones went to play WATER hahahahaha
me jer and trix walked around saw the exhibits!
SERIOSULY they're cool! :D
went to IMM for lunch! PEPPER LUCNH~
no one believed that i could finish AN UPSIZE ):<
i finisehd it okay!
walked around... like totally roaming...
went to the 3rd level garden plaza sat the spinning thingy
scary!
jer flung off like twice!
damn funnaye!
imagine after spinnig like damn longg
then you have to run to reach the slope-.-
i fell like ABCDEFG!
hahahaha i doubt you all get it OH WELL!(:
wanted to watch movie at trix's house but didnt-.-
OVERALL it was fun(:
photos next time IF its uploadeed to fb...
now im having difficulty typing
cause im coughing at like a rate of 1 cough/30s ):
i dont want to get sick and please please please dont let me have fever in school!
*prays hard*
a day without you is hard

2010-03-09T21:07:00.003+08:00

FEIGNING IGNORANCE?
sch was fine...
tried to stay awake during chinese by doing other homework:x
but AT LEAST i was awake!
protem after school...
i was telling others not to be so stressed
but i was the one stressing myself out-.-
it was indeed scary
and i think my interview was screwed...
but oh well i told the truth and
did my best so yeah...
i can only pray!
tmr's road run damn it!
im coughing like mad now
please please please ignore whatever i said
even i dont expect a medal so yeah...
am i doing the right thing?

2010-03-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

ITS HARD TO ADMIT
today was slacking again
i have no idea what homework to do like seriously-.-
and my mom used the newspaper im suppose to do for jian bao to...
EAT HER STUPID DURIAN ):<
so now i have no jian bao to do
ballet today was well idk why im tired
and kept thinking if ballet was the right choice for me?
is it what im really looking for? idk
came home slacked more
and now idk what to do-.-

2010-03-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

isnt it cool!(:
slacked throughout the day literally SLACKED
tuition was sooo alpha/beta
but i love saying it idk why!
cmae home and stared at the comp
well read some stuff
it kinda bothers me
i kept thinking about this word RESPECT
its easy to say and complain but hard to do it.
basically its like how we need two hands to clap
both parties have to do it.
its not about who respects who to gain whoevers respect
its about whether you want to or not.
idk if you guys get it but yeah...
went for dinner and guess who i saw at jurong point's crystal jade!!!
LIANGYIRAN! cool eh?
road run's next week
i hopethe class tee's coming in time
and i want a medal
i wanna get it but i doubt i will)':
sigh i will just do my best
its only your words that can make me feel better.

2010-03-05T20:22:00.002+08:00

HOW I WISH THAT WE'RE ALL SEC 1S AGAIN):
there wasn't 3.6km run today
results suck TOTALLY sucked.
i need someone to remind me to study
otherwise i can just transfer out of the school
and get kicked out of nanhua dance
sounds bad but its the reality):
dance today was well... hard to describe
YOG's next week and i dont want it to come...
BUT im prepared to stand at the back
ballet exam coming 4th april i guess?
im prepared to get a pass-.-
there goes the chain of distinctions
bye bye):
i want to go back to the days where we were sec 1s, living a carefree life. not knowing much about everything. now? idk people do change i know but isn't the change too great? is there a need for the change? is the compeition too great? is there even a need to compete? will everything change after ex-co has been chosen? is there even an answer for these questions? the moments we used to spend together were memorable. cause of this, things have to change? idk. i really dont. if i hadn't appealed to nanhua i wouldn't havee met you guys. if i haven't met you guys these may not happen? BUT its you guys that made me treasure my secondary school life. will batch95' be batch95' in the future? i choose to believe that we will still be the same. but its a question that cannot be answered now. theres only hope
im on a boat that can sink anytime):

2010-03-03T19:54:00.003+08:00

[edited]
IT MAKES ME WONDER
sch was the same yet again...
got back another science-not a good sign though):
im pretty upset...
i expected more
i guess you know why i broke down during dance?
i promised to never cry but i just couldnt take it anymoe))):
sec 1s came in today...
it was weird to have them
and personally i think they need improvement like A LOT
but not bad since its their first time with us(:
walked to mrt...
talked talked talked
if today didnt happen i wouldnt know much
should i be glad that today is over?
or should i be sad that today's over?
idk.
its protem next week...
STRESS!!!
i doubt i'll get in though BUT im gonna do my best(:
ASK AWAY!
dance elections in april i guess?
yet another worrying thing
sec 3 life is filled with surprises...
its a brave front that you see):

2010-03-02T17:54:00.003+08:00

i dont feel like posting right now... but im here to just type out my thoughts? got most of my results today. im disappointed with myself and i believe that i could have gotten much better. if only i could turn back time... hmm dance tmr and what should i feel? yes im happy to be seeing those dancers that can make my day(: yet i cant seem to feel happy. maybe its my results maybe its you? idk i really dont. i feel like changing my character to become an emo kid and have no friends. go home everyday to mug? maybe i should try this): but i dont like it oh well, its for my studies right? the word "dance" was in my head since common test had ended. thought of ballet and nhds... if i hadnt joined ballet i might be playing an instrument now or saving people/doing CPR on fake dummies. idk... theres just this feeling in me that doesnt feel right. i know that i dont want to see you but yet i wanna learn from you. maybe me being a smiley child is just the outside of me. no one really knows how i feel right? this sucks.):

306 i love you to the max(: -neon yellow(: yanting*hinthint*
it touched my heart when i felt your hands

2010-03-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

B3S...
today was well quite the same
im so dead for my sciences
i bet i'll fail phy and bio most probably chem too...
MY ONLY HOPE PHY...
i hope i pass
phy i love you so better not fail!
mdm yong made us demoralised today
kept saying that our bio very lan 3/4 fail etc etc
and now im so afraid to know the results...
i am SOOOOOO not looking forward to tmr and tmr the tmr
oh my mama...
for the currently results i have i have B3s...
no As!
ugh...
so disappointed
and please someone motivate me to do math!!!)))):
selfish people are hated! only think about YOURSELF and not others. ugh... you all disgust me! and you suck! so what if im your younger sister? so what? i deserve respect from you despite that! i learnt that respect is earned! i dont think you deserve my respect if i dont have the respect im suppose to have. treat others the way you want others to treat you. demoralising me every single time about my results. as if you're any smarter?! how is it great to face you every single day. its torture.

2010-02-28T19:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BRITHDAY JERROLD CHUA!
hey jer chua! older already dont so childish ah!
and you'er catching up to my height eh?
the 2 years sitting beside you for 2 years was indeed "torturous" but well had many fun times haha!
*hint hint hakeem*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYNN!
our dearest nhds vice-chair!(:
you're 16 already!
stay pretty and have a nice sweet 16(:

AM I TOO AMBITIOUS?
slept at 1am...
and damn am i tired
too tired for ballet today
oh well...
ballet kinda sucked today
but as usual had a great laugh with mandi,jingwen and yanting!
the last part of ballet sucked...
did the character dance tons of times
ugh...
and jingwen wants to change ballet schools after exam..
it kept me pondering for moments
yu laoshi had been teaching me since i was young like 7? till now):
if i change i'll miss him loads
but yet he doesn't teach as efficient as before as he's getting older
and does have stuff to handle for the group
sigh...
i have a month to think
can someone help me make a decision?
i have no idea why i keep thinking about ballet
idk idk idk):